Terry Deal


Why do I go?

I go to Haiti because I want to expand the size of my heart. I go because with all of my education, I have so much to learn. I go because I know enough to recognize the greater wisdom of others. I go because, with all of the suffering in my country, I do not want to forget those who suffer around the world. I go to inspire others. I go to inspire myself. I go because I want to be a role model for my children. I go because I am proud. I go because I am ashamed. I go to escape from Wal Marts. I go because I love. I go because I am loved. I go because I have much to give. I go because we waste so much food. I go because others are hungry. I go because I live with TVs and malls, McDonald's and Home Depot. I go to forget. I go to remember. I go so my children will understand more. I go because I understand so little. I go for the excitement. I go to slow down and focus. I go to help my sister. I go to share with friends. I go to laugh out loud. I go to cry. I go for the music. I go because I love to sing. I go because the universal language of love needs no translator. I go for the children. I go for the barefoot farmer whose back is as tough as the leather boots he never had. I go to hold the hand of a dying grandmother. I go to immerse myself in Life. I go to be closer to God. I go because I am brave. I go because I am so very afraid. I go because I live a privileged life and so many others do not. I go because I know about goats. I go because I am strong. I go to learn strength. I go because I want to help someone. I go to help myself. I go because it is the right thing to do. I go because it is the only thing to do. I go because I am a teacher. I go for the many lessons I have to learn. I go to join together with the Human Family. I go for others who can't go. I go because there are so many here who want to help. I go to appreciate the simple things, like bread and water, breath and blood. I go because I am able. I go because my family loves me more when I return. I go because I know so much. I go because I know so little. I go to prove something. I go because there is nothing to prove. I go because I am a different person for having gone. I go for spiritual renewal. I go to witness the scarred land, the poverty, the corruption, the ignorance, the agony, the hunger, the desperation, the cries for help, the hopelessness, the struggles, the disease, the fear, the fact that there is nothing I can do. I go because there is beauty and deep joy, peace, strength of character, pride, knowledge, unconditional love, faith, serenity and undying Hope in the people of Haiti. I go because of the fact that caring is sometimes the very thing that we can do. I go because no matter how tired I get or how much I think I have given, in truth, I receive so much more. I go because I believe.

-- Terry Deal